I had a bit of a rough weekend. All that aside, I am learning more and more every day about what balance looks like in my life. In this pursuit, I was drawn to Rich Mullins. That's right, Rich Mullins. I don't know how many of you guys know this guy, but hit him up in wikipedia. His songs were some of the first that ever touched my heart as a young teen and even adult. I decided to go ahead, break down, and add some of his lyrics to the note here. If you get a chance, download the raw version of this song and realize it was recorded on a cassette tape in an abandoned church only a few days before he died in a car wreck over 10 years ago.

Enjoy,
Josh


Hard to Get
Rich Mullins

You who live in heaven 
Hear the prayers of those of us who live on earth 
Who are afraid of being left by those we love 
And who get hardened in the hurt 

Do you remember when You lived down here where we all scrape 
To find the faith to ask for daily bread 
Did You forget about us after You had flown away 
Well I memorized every word You said 

Still I'm so scared I'm holding my breath 
While You're up there just playing hard to get 

You who live in radiance 
Hear the prayers of those of us who live in skin 
We have a love that's not as patient as Yours was 
Still we do love now and then 

Did You ever know loneliness 
Did You ever know need 
Do You remember just how long a night can get? 
When You were barely holding on 
And Your friends fall asleep 
And don't see the blood that's running in Your sweat 

Will those who mourn be left uncomforted 
While You're up there just playing hard to get? 

And I know you bore our sorrows 
And I know you feel our pain 
And I know it would not hurt any less 
Even if it could be explained 

And I know that I am only lashing out 
At the One who loves me most 
And after I figured this somehow 
What I really need to know 

Is if You who live in eternity 
Hear the prayers of those of us who live in time 
We can't see what's ahead 
And we cannot get free of what we've left behind 
I'm reeling from these voices that keep screaming in my ears 
All the words of shame and doubt blame and regret 

I can't see how You're leading me unless You've led me here 
Where I'm lost enough to let myself be led 
And so You've been here all along I guess 
It's just Your ways and You are just plain hard to get